My Daily Battles

I find myself having a lot of battles this week. Most of them are with myself.... For example, today I did not have anything prepared for lunch, so I knew I had to make a trip to Walmart to pick something up, of course I had to walk by all of the Easter candy {yum}, and then all the delicious baked cookies and cupcakes {yum}, and then I could smell the deli fryin' up some chicken {yum}, and last but not least...I noticed an endcap that had reeses eggs ice cream bars and mounds ice cream bars {umm, yum}. Now, I know that I can alocate for these if I want, I am choosing to get more food for my calorie...So I am empowering myself by making the "good" choices, right? Still hard to do. Really.Flippin'.Hard.

Okay.

 So, I am only a couple pounds from my first little mini goal, I am hoping it doesn't take too long to get there. After I reach that goal, I will encorporate some exercise into my routine...which I am excited about. I decided to make a goal for myself to workout after losing 10 pounds, only because I know me...and I know if I try to do it all right away my body freaks out and tries to abort the mission completely. {which causes me to not lose any weight and then my mind freaks out and also aborts...}. Therefore, I am trying to be realistic with myself and what I think is good for me. I am really trying to do what works for me, and NOT what I hear works for others...so far, so good.

I have to say, the beginning of weight loss is the hardest for me. I still feel fat and bulgy, yet feel like I'm starving from eating considerably less than my body was previously used to. This is always the hardest transition for me. So I am praying daily for strength to charge on!

I also really need to get my act together for meal planning. I usually can come with something in a flash, but this is also when I tend to do those "just this once" decisions that turn into much more than "just this once".

You know what I'm talking about, right??